Thursday, April 05, 2007

for what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

LOVE! LOVE!
to everyone and anyone.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.

hahaha.

my life in rjc, albeit being just a mere four months is an experience i will never forget!

starting from orientation, MR05 (L33T TITANS), then 08SO7A (new and old), and all the friends i made here and there, just with a simple "hi" and stuff. unfamiliar faces that are no longer stranger to me, friends that i made after coming here, friends that i've had with me since forever, close friends that i'm ever so thankful for, though i hardly express it.

special mention to sianying. THANK YOU.

i have to admit, leaving this all behind isn't the easiest of things but new beginnings are good, aren't they?

will really try my very best to keep in touch with everyone, despite busy schedules and stuff, especially when my term starts and everyone's schedules get uber busy. my promise here, is to really try my best. after all, the easiest part of parting is the familiar uttering of "keep in touch" but more often than never, those words eventually fade into the background, pushed into the backseat by hectic schedules, clashing timetables, appearance of new friends, other commitments.

soon enough, i'll be going into something i am totally new to. i know that it's not going to be a breeze and i'll really need to get down to work and be serious about things. no more procrastinating. it's a reality check of sorts, because realising that you will have the absolute freedom to choose whether you want to make it or break it, sometimes that's scary.

self discipline. what i lack and what i really need now.

expectations. we like acting like we don't care since it's our own lives so we should be able to do whatever we want with it, but there are hopes and dreams that are pinned on us. dreams that people hope to come true through us, and letting them down, it's perhaps the most painful thing.

fear. of not being able to do it, not living up to expectations, of all things unexpected. it's insecurity, i suppose. it's something that must be overcomed, but not forgotten.

no regrets. our basketball team goal last year. we all hope to be able to live like that, but it's hard, to me, at this point of time. will keep trying to achieve that.

choking up, reflecting on stuff is always an emotional process for me. after all, i always think super highly of myself. :D

my sudden urge to belt out you give me something by james morrison in the middle of the night should remain an urge and nothing more.

haha, goodnight, world!

Posted by STINKY @ 10:43 PM