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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

OH MY DEAR LAPTOP,
PLEASE DO NOT DIE ON ME.

LOVE,
YOUR OWNER.

what a way to begin the holidays!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

fly me to the planet where dreams do come true.

jazz under the stars tonight. a few glitches here and there but generally, the music was good! (: so glad i managed to catch up with so many people that i haven't seen in agessss! and there were some that i couldn't recognise (i'm bad with faces!) so i do apologise if i came across as rude. didn't mean to, really. well, tonight's entry is mostly photos, memories.






saw the wreckage of an accident while in the car on the way back. at that moment, my heart just went cold, like something was clenching it tightly. i don't deal with death well, or the mere thought of it. oftentimes we just think everything revolves within our own little world, like it's never going to happen to us, but in truth, compared to the rest of the universe, that's just how small we are.

i was just thinking today that of all people, the ones that are most likely to be hurt are the dreamers, because they tend to fall harder. and alot of people tell me that's why they like to go into things without expectations, because if it ended up a disappointment, it would've been expected anyway.
i hate that thought. somehow, i'd like to think that dreams do come true.
is that too much to ask for?

this was meant to be short entry, but i guess late nights/early mornings put me in my contemplative mood. or maybe it's just today.

Friday, April 25, 2008

there's a little animal in all of us.

"the contest is a lion fight. so chin up, put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. don't lick your wounds, celebrate them. the scars you bear are the signs of a competitor. you're in a lion fight, just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar."

grey's is back, and better than before!

I HAVE GOT TO CATCH HIM LIVE.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

MESS UP MY BED, WITH ME.

paperweight by joshua radin and schuyler fisk is seriously addictive.
every word you say, i think i should write down,
don't want to forget come daylight.
...and no need to wonder what's been on my mind,
it's you, it's you.
i can't seem to get it off repeat. it plays in my head when i'm not listening to it.
it's so wistful, it gets people in a pensive mood.
taking a break from studying this week, will start on stats...soon.
i will, i will, i must.
i love the rain!

edit 14:22 : i just saw the photos sis sent me from beijing in my email. i need to get awayyy.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

don't want to forget come daylight.

music: paperweight by joshua radin and schuyler fisk

today was great, hanging on to a rope 10 metres above ground, with my legs shaking uncontrollably.
and i got to enjoy the scenery from up there.
i overcame something in me today (i'm still figuring out what) and met a few more remarkable people.

people walk in and out of our lives so we just have to cherish the time spent with them.
how true, indeed.

edit: my eyes hurt. i think they are sunburnt, as is the rest of my face. can't seem to study. bad, bad. and the construction going on opposite my place is driving me nuts.
ARGHHHHHH.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

oh something has to give.

music: paper aeroplanes by kt tunstall


i'm gonna pretend that i'm looking up through those leaves at the clear blue sky, and not the whirring fan and stark (pink) ceiling of my room. all this talk about travelling.

paper aeroplanes is an awesome song.

And when I build you a steeple
You say it's incomplete
'Cause you need the whole cathedral
To satisfy the need


today in stats class:

someone makes a really lame comment.
pao: gosh, i'm rolling my eyes.

me: yeah, me too. it's just that my eyes are rolling so fast, when you look at me, it seems like my pupils are stationary.

pao: HAHAHA.

i surprise myself sometimes!
ooooh all this studying is getting to me.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

among the roots and baby's breath.

music: wine red by the hush sound.


looking through this gallery is driving me crazy. i don't know why but i'm suddenly very tired of the things around me lately. i just want to escape to somewhere far, far away.

you're so much more than just good enough.

music: good enough by sarah mclachlan

chanced upon a poem by maya angelou titled "phenomenal woman", and i really like it. i thought i'd just share the last stanza here.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
The palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

it's just so full of confidence, and it's strangely empowering. i just love it.

i love being female. i'm not feminist or anything, i don't like it when people give me crap about being feminist and rgs being a "feminist" school. we're proud to be female, that's what we are, but we do not go around bashing the opposite sex. now i'm reminded of a quote from the movie iron jawed angels, "in women, courage is often mistaken for insanity." i know it doesn't really fit in with whatever i've been saying, but oh, i like that line alot, especially if you watch the movie, you'd understand why.

reading through all the poems brings back memories of lit classes back in raffles. and how we pranced around spouting lines like "unsex me here!" (macbeth, shakespeare) and "rage, rage, against the dying of the light!" (do not go gentle into that good night, dylan thomas) usually with no relation whatsoever to what we were doing at all. crazy us, as always.

i'm rambling. i should be sleeping. strange night, tonight.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

navigation horrors.

i discovered today that i'm not just bad at reading maps, i am absolutely, horrifically lousy at it!

Friday, April 11, 2008

hey, dude.

music: all the young dudes by matt the hoople

fate has been extremely generous with me this week. first it was seeing jt's name in my sms inbox, a little jingle from the past. then reading joo's name off the caller id yesterday for a very very random chat on...stuff. today came, and while i was waiting for a bus home, i looked up at the second level of the double decker-ed 74, and i saw victor staring down at me. after a succession of smiles, gestures and very lousy lip-reading, i waved him off as the bus drove off. and the sms i got from him later, read:

"Haha hey. Nice stone face. I think I stared at you for like 5 minutes?"

gosh, some things never change.

come to think of it, fate has been kind to me all my life. no matter where i land up, i always manage to make good and dependable friends. of course, there're always those negligible pests, but yeah. most of the time, all's been good for me. which brings me to my point, that i must meet up with everyone after finals.

and like pao said, i've been so spoilt this week cause of all the lifts that i got home in the car, coming home by bus just now felt a tad weird.
haha, that would be a bad habit to develop.

last night was good, hanging out with pao, kean and sean. just talking, over ice cream (ben and jerry's chocolate therapy! yummmmm.) and dinner (korean!). i swear, i'm so broke but i totally splurge when it comes to food. then the long drive back with good music and more talking, it should happen more often.


i dreamt of having dimsum last night. urghhh. now i'm having a mad craving for dimsum.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

everybody's looking for that something.

music: flying without wings by westlife

i never ever get sick of flying without wings. it's just such a beautiful song. classic.

So impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
'Cause who's to know
Which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

close my eyes to your gaze.

music: scars (stronger for life) by corrinne may


looking at this shot makes me feel like i'm breathing in fresh air and basking in the soft glow of the sun, enjoying the cool breeze atop a hill.

pepper lunch last night was mmmmmm. gratifying.
amount of work/studying i did this morning: zilch.

Sunday, April 06, 2008

and all we can do is keep breathing.

no matter how many times i watch this, i don't get sick of it. it has got to be one of the best scenes in GA ever. sandra oh is just such an amazing actress.

today was good.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

simply because.

music: jiyu e no shotai by l'arc-en-ciel

last night's gathering for kean's 5-month late birthday celebrations and our own comms celebratory dinner was awesome, everything ended off well with us learning of our grade at the end of the night, which was exhilarating because it was an affirmation of all the late nights and intense meetings we had put in. (: i was feeling a whole mix of emotions, relief/tiredness for the final end to pao and my marketing project, (the presentation yesterday went better than expected, minus some minor glitches). a general sense of jadedness, surprise, craziness, and i even got choked up for a moment. of course i felt joyous, and i don't need a reason for that.

Friday, April 04, 2008

away to where the leaves turn red.

music: penny and me by hanson


i don't know why, but i like this shot alot. i don't know about camera lightings or anything, but i just like the way it's taken. it just makes me feel...happy. okay, maybe it's just the daisies but still, it makes me happy.

penny and me is such a wonderful song. it's so awfully sweet and dreamy and it reminds me of primary school. this song is sooo old but i just don't get sick of it. i guess it's just the lyrics.

today's gonna be a good day. i don't know why. i woke up and knew it was going to be a good day. excel will not get me down. and i really should start studying for it. now.

I SAID 'KICKASS' AND WE REALLY DID.

OKAY THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT TONIGHT THAT IS SO VERY WONDERFUL. AND TRULY, IT'S REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY AMAZINGGGG.


THANK YOU, EVERYONE. TRULY, FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. WE ARE A REMARKABLE BUNCH.

honestly, i haven't been so crazily happy in awhile.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

a day for fools to come clean.

at 12.17am, i got pranked.
WEEYANG, NOT FUNNY HUH!
but i must admit it was a good one, my heart actually went cold for a moment.

so at 12.43am, i decided to try my hand at pranking someone too:

STINKY. says:
i just got pranked!
i wish i had something ingenius to prank you with but no, i don't
haha

- Siang - Take Five says:
hahah
well
now even if you did
it's not gonna work

STINKY. says:
and how do you know!

- Siang - Take Five says:
coz u just told me that you were going to?

STINKY. says:
oh. but that's cause i didn't know what to do! if i did i wouldn't say a thing

- Siang - Take Five says:
hah but now if you think of something it wouldn't work!

STINKY. says:
OKAY I'M GONNA PRANK YOU NOW

- Siang - Take Five says:
OKAY

STINKY. says:
OH I HAVE NO PRANK! HAPPY APRIL FOOLS! YOU BELIEVED I HAD A PRANK FOR YOU!
HAHAHAHAHAHA

- Siang - Take Five says:
riiight

STINKY. says:
hahahaha

- Siang - Take Five says:
i give that attempt
a 0.3 / 10

STINKY. says:
what? it doesn't even garner a 1/10?
i'm disappointed
i know
that's a joke right
it's actually supposed to be full marks or somewhere near there

- Siang - Take Five says:
naaaaaaah
im feeling like a 0.3
haha
there you go

STINKY. says:
pshhhh what a damper

okay, i was trying! and it was almost 1am in the morning, what more can you expect!
now i shall go back to my marketing.
happy april fool's, all!

EDIT: 2.50am. JESMUND, WEEYANG AND I JUST PRANKED SEAN SO BAD. HAHAHA. BEST. PRANK. EVER. HAHAHAHA. SORRY SEAN, YOU KNOW WE LOVE YOU! HAHAHA.

and i really really should be sleeping but now i'm high.

EDIT: 3 something am. sean pranked me back. an eye for an eye. it was a lousy prank but i actually did think he might have been angry about the previous one. okay, i'll give it 1/10. i'm nicer than tzungsiang. haha.